sometimes it seems to me that "It's the end of it"!
sometimes I dont even want to go on! not even a moment!
"nothing" makes my life unbearable for me!
"nothing" makes me feel empty of life!
"nothing" makes me out of my depth!
I'll do it! just to make myself feel better! just to show that I'm good enough, more than "nothing" expects!
I'm going on just to make "nothing" feel guilty and ashamed. and at that moment: I'm done!